Penelope Ward

It’s hard alright. God, I can’t get it out of my head!

Pierced mushroom head.

Shit.

Keep the change, or rather, change into these. I’m guessing your current ones are a little wet.

not flee the premises fast enough.

I blew out a breath.

myself. A Google search of pierced penises ended up keeping me up the rest of that first night. Let me tell you, anyone who innocently

Physically, he was my dream and in every other way, my nightmare.

I fucking loved his smell, wanted to drown in it.

What I need is for you to go back to your room. It’s not because I don’t want to spend time with you. It’s because I don’t trust myself.”
“I want to stay here with you.”
“With the way I’m feeling right now, I just can’t be in the same room with you. I was a wreck when you went out on that date with flower boy. And that was before I found out I was leaving. Then, you come in here looking so fucking beautiful in that dress. I only have so much control.”
“I don’t care if something happens. I want it to.”
He looked down at the ground and shook his head. “We can’t let it.” Elec was quiet then looked me in the eyes. “The other day, you knew I had a girl over. Nothing happened. She tried, but I couldn’t get it up. It didn’t feel right, and it’s been that way for a long time—ever since that night in your room. You don’t think I’ve fantasized about doing what you asked me to, knowing I’d be the first you would get to experience that with? Do you have any idea what even hearing the words ‘show me how you fuck’

coming out of your sweet little mouth did to me? It ruined me.”
“I’d rather have one night with you than nothing at all.”
“You don’t mean that. If I thought you were the type of girl who did, we wouldn’t be talking right now.” He placed both hands on my shoulders, causing a shiver to run through me. “And for the record, I like that you’re not that type of girl.” He let out a deep breath that I felt on my chest. “Even if you say you could handle it…I’m not sure I could.”

I want your first time. I want to be the first one to show you everything and to be the one you’ll always remember for the rest of your life. But only if you meant it when you said that was what you wanted.”