Love & Misadventure

First Love

Before I fell
in love with words,
with setting skies
and singing birds—
it was you I fell
in love with first.

Always

You were you,

and I was I;

we were two

before our time.

I was yours

before I knew,

and you have always

been mine too.

It's so dark right now, I can't see any light around me.

That's because the light is coming from you. You can't see it but everyone else can.

In a sea of strangers,
you've longed to know me.
Your life spent sailing
to my shores.
The arms that yearn
to someday hold me,
will ache beneath
the heavy oars.
Please take your time
and take it slowly;
as all you do
will run its course.
And nothing else
can take what only—
was always meant
as solely yours.

All or Nothing

If you love me
for what you see,
only your eyes would be
in love with me.
If you love me
for what you've heard,
then you would love me
for my words.
If you love
my heart and mind,
then you would love me,
for all that I'm.
But if you don't love
my every flaw,
then you mustn't love me—
not at all.

Soul Mates

I don't know how you are so familiar to me—or why it feels less like I am getting to know you and more as though I am remembering who you are. How every smile, every whisper brings me closer to the impossible conclusion that I have known you before, I have loved you before—in another time, a different place—some other existence.

A Way Out

Do you know what it is like,
to lie in bed awake;
with thoughts to haunt
you every night,
of all your past mistakes.
Knowing sleep will set it right—
if you were not to wake.

I know I've no right to feel it
but it doesn't mean I don't.

A Reverie

A dusty room,
a window chair,
unseeing eyes
that gaze into
the montage of
a love affair.
A carousel
of memories,
spinning round
into a blur.
Her mind is now
a fairground ride—
she wonders if
you think of her

There is a particular kind of suffering to be experienced when you love something greater than yourself. A tender sacrifice.

Like the pained silence felt in the lost song of a mermaid; or the bent and broken feet of a dancing ballerina. It is in every considered step I am taking in the opposite direction of you.