I’m the girl who is lost in space, the girl who is disappearing always, forever fading away and receding farther and farther into the background.
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They have no idea what a bottomless pit of misery I am.
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The shortness of life, I keep saying, makes everything seem pointless when I think about the longness of death.
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How could I let anybody see me this way? How could I expose other people to my person, to this bane to the world? I was one big mistake.
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I felt something very wrong going on. In fact, I felt that I was wrong—my hair was wrong, my face was wrong, my personality was wrong—my God, my choice of flavors at the Haagen-Dazs shop after school was wrong!
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My friends, and my mother for that matter, would be relieved to find that I was more the me they wanted me to be.
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I would fantasize about going back to the person I had always been.
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But then I never had to worry about a crash landing because I never even took off.
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How did all that life-force energy turn so completely into a death wish?
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It is hard for me to remember a life that was so cocksure, so free of self-doubt, so pure in its certainty.